“A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever ? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.” – Elizabeth Gilbert [Eat, Pray, Love]

How true. How very true. But I don’t know, I might not so mind the idea of living with you forever.

I listened to love songs, read love quotes, watched movies and dramas with a lot of love in it, and I wonder, is it possible for me to fall in love or love someone that passionately and deeply, that makes me go crazy, unreasonable, and just too obsessed with that person? I haven’t felt that way towards anyone before. Yes I have liked, loved and lusted, but not that desperately and certainly still with my head on my shoulder. Am I even capable of feeling such feelings? Or do I even want to have such feelings? Sometimes I wonder.

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.”
-St. Augustine

Will someone ever make me feel that way?

I thought it was falling airplane at first. My sentence went something like this “Hey, is that a falling….star?” After which I spent a few minutes trying to think of a wish. ;)
Not even 2 weeks left until I leave this place. Grace told me that I should be numb to this already, leaving people behind or getting left behind. I told her its not about leaving people behind, its knowing that things will change after this. We won’t be as close anymore. A fact that I have to accept.

I’ve had to say goodbye more times than I would have liked. But, everyone can say that. And no matter how many times we do it, even when it’s for the greater good, it still stings. And though we’ll never forget what we’ve given up, we owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward. What we can’t do is live our lives always afraid of the next goodbye, because chances are they’re not going to stop. The trick is to recognize when a goodbye can be a good thing – when it’s a chance to start again.
– Betty Suarez

Shall post some of the comments and replies that I got from certain people these past few weeks that kind of touched me, plain cute or I just felt good hearing it. =)

ok bye jo-ey boo boo – I

you’re weird
(but i like )
HAHA – I

Everytime I eat chicken rice, I think of you – D

i miss your laughter – AT

You’re muffin, sweety. – SP

mwak mwak mwak – I

anything I can help my dear… – AP

Remember what you told us today… – AY

morning sunshine – JG

I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u I miss u !!! – C

MWAH KE PANTAT LO YANG PALING SEKSI – SS

cepetan balikkk, cici dah kangenn – JL

you made my day/i love you – couple of people =)

in short,
thank YOU for making MY days.

If you are wondering why I don’t update my blog lately its because I’m really lazy… I can’t express myself well in writing. And I don’t find the point of writing down stuff that is not that important or significant. Excuses… Hahah, sorry guys. I know I’m just supposed to update on stuff that’s up with me and not to impress anyone on “interesting stuff”. So here it goes.

2 weeks more is my final. I’m kind of over it already due to the many tests we had to take just before the final. I’m currently in love with the song Need You Now by Lady Antebellum. I have been rewatching old Disney movies. It’s amazing how much details I forgot when I was a little kid. Ahha. I have been working out at night (sort of) by shooting hoops with the lights of my car. My only concern is that I would disturb the people around with the echo of the dribbling. Its only a month and half left until I leave SoCal (Southern California). I think I told you guys before that I felt excited yet sad at the same time. I love my friends here and they mean a lot to me. We are like a family… And there’s my Aunt Lily that’s so nice and I owe to her a lot for what she had done for me. Also my kind pastor and his lovely wife that I love so very much. She had been there for me like a mother and I really appreciate it. On the other hand, I’m kind of getting bored with this place too and I’m excited at the new environment and new prospects that’s waiting for me in Davis. Its going to be all new but I know He will take care of me. =)

By the way, I will be flying to Singapore on 1st July, so if you guys need my help in getting some stuff please remind me and if its going to be shipped to my place please take note of the date. Will be in Singapore probably almost the whole of July with holes in between as I probably will travel around. First two weeks of August will be in Indo, will be in Jakarta and then off to Semarang for mission trip(yay!). After that I’m still not sure of where I will be whether in Indo or Sg but I have to be back to Sg anyway for my return flight which is on 31st August.

So see you guys soon ;D

XOXO

I took a personality test the other day in my Psychology class and found it to be very accurate. It was like a comedy show when my professor was explaining the relationships between two extremes in each category. I kind of learned why certain people behaved certain way and kind of understood where they are coming from. Now I am less critical of people that are too emotional.

The title is my temperament type, which consist of Introversion, Sensing, Thinking and Judging.

I was actually split half between Introversion and Extraversion, but the test said to take Introversion if it was 50/50. However, my professor explained that if I was split half, it just means that some of the days I am an introvert while some of the days I’m an extravert. That really explains a lot of stuff. I was wondering myself how come some of the days I just don’t feel like hanging out with people and just want to be alone while other days I love to socialize. Introverts are the ones that you see eating dinner or watching movie by himself/herself and actually enjoys it. Extraverts when looking at them, will usually say to themselves “What is wrong with this people?!”‘ And usually will call them a loner. But in fact, the introverts actually want to be left alone and they enjoy being alone. D

Sensing is just that I would rather work with known facts than look for new possibilities and relationships while Intuition is just the opposite. Those with Sensing temperament should avoid jobs that need to deal with creativity and people. For me it was 55/45. I love learning new stuff but would rather prefer to work with things that I already know.

Thinking as opposed to Feeling is just making decisions based on impersonal analysis and logic rather than based on your personal values and feelings. I may hurt other people’s feelings without knowing it, surprise surprise. But, those with Feelings tend to be aware of other people and their feelings, enjoy pleasing people and like harmony. This was 60/40. I learned that people who based decisions on feelings are actually not stupid, they know the logic behind it, but they just rather rely on their feelings. Which I found is unwise most of the time…

As a Judging rather than Perceiving, I like planned, decided, orderly way of life better than flexible, spontaneous way. I work best when I can plan my work and follow the plan. Perceivers adapt well to changing situations and do not mind leaving plans for alterations. My professor warned us that those that are Judging will have trouble during vacations as they tend to be stressed out when things are not following schedule. This was 70/30 for me. Hahah.

People are mostly composed of both extremes, there are very rarely those that are only towards one end of the spectrum. Interesting stuff.

I learned that you probably won’t get over the people that you had loved before in your life; no matter what they had done. I learned that they had affected my life so greatly that it would be impossible not to think of them once in a while.

I learned not to dislike people before knowing them well; the people that I had terrible first impressions with are my greatest friends now.

I learned that believing in someone that few believed in yields great results.

I learned that opening my eyes to the world around me doesn’t necessarily compromise what I believed in; it strengthened my belief instead.

I learned that no matter whom I tried to be, my friends love me best when I am me.

I learned that true friends will praise me for good things that I had done and will set me in my place when I’m wrong.

I learned that it’s almost always disappointing to place my hope on people.

I learned that I’m being allowed to feel a certain way because then I would know how they feel and understand.

I learned that to defeat temptation, one has to run away from it; not face it.

I learned to appreciate people that I would otherwise won’t if not for the new people that I met.

I learned that no matter where I go, I will be alright.

I learned not to take things personally, people just do stuff unknowingly most of the time without any ill intention that most of the time I thought they had.

I learned that everything happens for a reason.

I learned that as much as you try to influence others, it’s up to them to change eventually.

I learned to laugh often, since it brightens people that’s around me.

I learned to eat for quality instead for quantity.

I learned that nothing could compare to having someone thanking you for making a difference in their lives; whether its personal or educational.

I learned to give the best in everything I do, so as not to leave any regrets.

I learned that I am nothing, if not for the grace of Jesus Christ.

Holla! Seems that I have been MIA for the past couple of weeks… Well nothing interesting happened I was just busy with school, work and musical practice. Yeah we are going to have a musical for Easter. =D It’s so going to be great and it will really be a miracle if we make it through. =) Other than that my spring break is here! Yay! It’s only a week but what the heck a break is still a break. Hahah. Will be off to Seattle this coming Saturday. Because…my BROTHER is HERE in the STATES! It’s an unforgettable moment for me when I saved his new number in my phone. I was like, man, he is going to be here in the same timezone as me, he is going to be here, I can visit him often now, I can call him easily now, etc2. So basically it just hit me right then too that my youngest brother is all alone in Singapore =( awww…I miss him too… Anyway yeah I will be meeting my parents too! And this post is dedicated to CINDY TRISNADI for being so awesome in taking my family everywhere (I mean everywhere) and really taking care of their needs when I was not even there yet. You rock Cin I love you! ^^

To the rest that I haven’t seen in a while…believe me, I miss you guys too. Let’s pray that I can go back home this summer. Ahha. Alright then, take care!

Mansaf! Pronounced mensef, it is the national dish of Jordan. The dish consisted of lamb cooked in fermented dried yogurt. A layer of flatbread is underneath the rice and it is garnished with parsley and pine nuts. It was Delicious. The lamb was so tender and soft; the yogurt, rice, flatbread and lamb blend with each other really well. The yogurt was a little too sour for me though, maybe also I was not used to eating Middle Eastern kind of yogurt. Oh yeah I almost forgot to mention where I had it. So my classmate, Chiavez (I might be spelling his name wrong), worked in this restaurant-hookah bar place called Andaluz. I readily agreed when he asked me to visit him since he kept RAVING about the lamb dish they have. So I came with Lisa, Steve and his two other friends on Friday (just because the Mansaf is only served only Fridays) Heheh. Lisa and me shared the whole plate of it while the other three just smoked. To those of you surprised on why I would share my food is because dude, it is a LOT. In addition, although the meat was not that much, the yogurt fills you up quickly. Would be back there to try other foods. Chicken Tawouk caught my eye just now. =D

Andaluz Bakery & Restaurant
930 South Brookhurst Street
Anaheim, CA 92804-4305

Tadahhhh!!! Looks amazing right? It tasted amazing too. Bought from Extraordinary Desserts by Karen Krasne in San Diego. I could not follow the rest for a day trip there but thanks Nicky for making my night in bringing this home to me. ;D Anyway, back to the tart.
The “Cream” in the name certainly didn’t disappoint. More than half of the tart was just cream. As good as it tasted, it would be detrimental to health too. So I set aside a whole dollop of it before proceeding to enjoy a mouthful of banana/crust/cream/white chocolate/mango awesomeness. Mango? You may ask. I was surprised too when I found a mango puree inside a little container when I opened the box. Apparently it adds to the taste. =)
Extraordinary Desserts is certainly a must go for anyone who is stopping by at San Diego. The place itself is cozy and classy at the same time. The menu ranges from beautiful arrays of desserts including tarts, cookies, puddings etc. The shop also offers wide variety of teas to choose from. I also heard that the desserts menu changes too. Been there a few times and had tried different kinds of stuff. Some were pretty but disappointing while some were just pretty and amazing. I guess you just have to know which to pick. =)

Extraordinary Desserts
1430 Union Street, San Diego, CA 92101
2929 Fifth Avenue, San Diego, CA 92103

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